I am really thinking about giving up on everything. With all the things that have been going on, that seems like the best option because nothing is working out right now.
Can I have you back, please? It’s terrible without you.
I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. There’s no one here who understands this feeling and no one is there to talk to. Just this time last year, 365 days ago I was the absolute happiest person on earth and nothing could bring me down. Now, I am a complete mess in every way and I have to get medical help for the depression. It just doesn’t make sense in any fathom possible. Who knew someone could be so hurt that they need to see a doctor? It seems like something you read about or see in a movie but no, it is indeed a real life experience and I am a victim of it. You don’t understand the pain, the hurt, the amount of tears, the sorrow, everything you put did by throwing it all away. You really did kill an innocent soul who’s purpose was only to make you happy. Some days I can’t take it anymore and wish that I wasn’t here or anywhere. I just want to be left alone to myself for a while but that’s impossible. It’s amazing what one whole year can do and how drastic of a difference it can make. One year apart from pure happiness to utter sadness. You. You leave me speechless at the damage you brought upon by breaking a heart. I tried my best to give you everything but in the end, it obviously wasn’t enough because I was never good enough, isn’t that right? You don’t have to say “yes” or “no”, a broken heart knows the answer automatically.
I will never understand what happened or where anything went wrong. Everything was so perfect and in place like a finished puzzle but out of no where it all broke down. Did I really deserve to go through all this pain like the first time but a hundred thousand times more hurtful? It will never be easy to explain why. You were my everything and to this very moment and forever on, I still care for you. Maybe I wasn’t the best or wasn’t perfect or could give you the whole word but I always did my best day in and day out but it obviously wasn’t enough to keep you. I’m sorry I couldn’t give you everything. I’m sorry I wasn’t the most interesting or the best looking, I’m just me, that’s it. It still hurts to this day and will always hurt no matter what.
Pretty doesn’t begin to explain you.
You leave my body without air with just a glance
I could look at you forever and never get bored.
Gorgeous doesn’t do enough justice to describe you.
Every step you take is like you are on a run way and people watch
I could take pictures for days and love them all equally.
Elegance is no where close to you.
The way you speak leaves me enchanted and in an ecstasy
I could listen to your heart every night under the stars.
Beauty isn’t strong enough to describe you.
From one day to the next, you become more and more astounding
I could watch you for hours and be mesmerized.
Only one word truly is you and that is perfection.
I love you…